Friday, 31 July 2009


I am currently undergoing a self induced re-modeling and long overdue maintainance.

I'm slowly learning that everything i've ever felt important to me, makes sense even now. Which is actually pretty reassuring, but in the short term, my situation is a bust!

I try to be a good person, I live well, look after my family, I do the things I love and avoid conflicts to the best of my ability. I can be oppinionated but im not sure thats a bad thing...i like animals, I recycle! I make sure things get done...

And then someone goes and steals our car?!

As an English woman living in America, I am starting to realise all that I had back in England, which I took for granted and this car theft thing is really getting on my nerves.....
Time to get something done!

Right now though, i'm going to feed a rather hungry Iguana, and possibly my family! They're eating me out of house and home! :)

They're all cute though, and my rescued Iguana is doing SO well!

Have a great Friday!

Thursday, 30 July 2009

Life Walks Beside Me

Life does not pass me by -
It simply walks beside me.
Not hand in hand
For this is no love affair.
I simply catch it.
A fleeting glimpse -
From the corner of my eye,
In my shadows -
One slender finger exposed...
Resonant of our dear Grim Reaper!
Emotionally chipping away -
Wanting to play...
Wanting of prey.
They; two sides of the same coin -
Life and death; in the same breath.
I am their purchase.
A treat, this life of promise.
Should I follow the reapers song?
Is death perhaps the release?
The peace...
This piece of me? Unsettled unscored -
Not one to be ignored.
Life creeps behind my shadows, still.
It is MY will.
And I choose neither one nor other.
This is MY earth 'neath MY toes
And these are MY footsteps trodden
On rocky roads
Painting footsteps into stories
Until I'm done...
Until I AM done.
I'll let them be...
I'll let them be.
Life and death can fight for me.

The Mirror

This mirror, the one in my hand.
This mirror…right here.
Harbors no reflectivity.
Radiates nothing but pain.
Shards of splintered glass lie here.
This mirror, the one IN my hand.
Could not attain reflection of self.
It just became red.
This mirror, the one in my hand.
This mirror right HERE – dripping!
This mirror…

Wednesday, 29 July 2009

They stole the fuckin car!? Could they be any dumber?!


Right, this is fuckin' ridiculous to the point I'm going to fuck up the next person who tries to take a single penny of the very little money we have! Its taking food out of our kids mouths and fuckin' up my god damn chakra n' shit!

Today, some cunt stole my cunting car!

YES! Thats right ladies and jelly beans! Some wanker finally stole that heap of shit car!!

Picture the scene, its night time, someone steals the car, drives off. they hit daylight or somewhere with a lightbulb and they see the GREEN car with a PINK BUMPER and a FLORAL STEERING WHEEL, NO stereo, Nothing of value, not even a lighter! 1 pair of old shoes and 8 bottles of Lemon Cranberry Juice alongside some packing peanuts!!!


We're fuckin' BROKE as it is and the cunts take OUR car?! Come on now!! There are dozens of better cars out there and they take our piece of shit car?!

This country sucks balls, if it isn't one person screwing you for money to shove up their own cunt then its some cunt stealing your fuckin' cunt mobile.


Today is a Dylan day too so Jordan's not too pleased! He misses that boy enough as it is, doesn't need this shit too!

Enjoy that one!

I'm going to look for a new fuckin' car!

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